Guam in the Distance…

I cleaned up the member database because it was growing real huge and mostly with one-time login users who never came back, and some who haven’t been on the site for a long time. If you got deleted and want to get back in, just register again.

94.142.134.238 is from Latvia(LV) in region Eastern Europe

So WTF Eastern Europe, someone has been trying to login as admin on here. Don’t you have anything better to do than mess with a personal blog site??? Step off already!!!!!

Resource usage has gone down and stabilized since I got ride of some other “web junk” leftovers in my hosted account. We’ll see what my next month’s billing looks like. I don’t really want to take this blog homefront down unless I have to since I’d then have to install some other kind of login system… so that the music library isn’t open to the web without any sort of check-in.

If anybody out there in the vastness of the web even gives a rat’s holler, I’m going to take down this blog. Seems ever since I dropped the now long gone www.13n144e.com PhP-Fusion site and installed/brought up this WordPress system, I’ve been getting a lot of “site unreachable” notices from a web site monitor I use to check on this and a couple of other personally run sites..

I believe it’s because WordPress is a resource hog when it comes to running it on a web server, much less a shared hosting plan server. I then upgraded to a VPS account so I could have dedicated resources, but now I pay for what I use and holy crap I ain’t gonna pay every month for what I’ve seen ever since I went to VPS hosting!!!

Let me be clear (oh yeah a patented Obama phrase!!) that it’s not just this one installation of WordPress that’s doing it. I’m running multiple installations for several different interests, with a database for each on the backend of them, all on one account.

I’m probably going to sign up for a wordpress.com account and export this site to the other.. and live with whatever features I lose in going to a free service. Oh well…

At any rate, let’s see if I can move everything transparently. If not, you’ll know why if you come here and the site is down.

I was just reading some tabloid trash kind of page linked off of msn.com about Maria Shriver possibly thinking twice about divorcing Arnold Swarzenegger (if you don’t know what their deal is, then you don’t need to read this because you’re not much for Hollywood tabloid stuff anyway). The article mentioned her Catholic upbringing and how the church frowns on divorce. The story then asked readers what they think (about Maria possibly forgiving Arnold).

Now, while I normally just passively read all this gossipy crap, I did give pause to that question. It brought back thoughts I had years ago about cheating wives (and/or husbands as the case may be) back in my military days and how fellow soldiers would say shit like “man if that was my wife I’d divorce the bitch”… you know how the guys would talk when one guy is going thru a crisis with his wife being unfaithful. Again, this is easily on the other foot so the circumstance I’m exampling is simply the scenario I had.

Anyway, so easy to say that when:

(1) you’re on the outside of the relationship looking in merely as an unaffected observer.

(2) you don’t have a strong, meaningful, longtime nurtured marriage or relationship on which to draw upon to make such critical decisions.

(3) you live based on guidance from ego as the predominant “face” of your life

In the final analysis, who cares what the reader thinks (referring back to that story I was reading)? The only two people whose opinion counts is Maria’s and Arnold’s. The only two people who have to live with a decision to split or stay together are the two people involved. and the only people “wrong” in whatever decision is made are the outside observers who think they know what’s best for others when it comes to terms of endearment.